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050831Loveistoleratinghisshortcomingsinthesamewayyouenjoyhismerits.LoveishavingahappysensewhenIbearhardshipsforhim.〜Douzi(areader)toChangloveisastory,whichistoldbytheheartsoftwobelovedpersons.〜131xxxx0930Ifyousaymyeyesarebeautiful,thatisbecausetheyarelookingatyou.ThingswillbefineWHENIgotmarried,Iwasstilljustagirlinside.Atthattime,Ibelievedeverysinglewordoffairytales,agirlwhowaswaitingforaknighttocomeandmakeherlifecomplete.MymarriedlifewasinsharpcontrasttowhatIimagined.Tobehonest,thefirstmonthofmarriagewasterrible.First,myparents-in-lawmovedinwithus,andthenmysister-in-lawalsocamefromCanadatovisitus,withher4-year-oldson.SuddenlyIwassurroundedbyagroupofstrangers.Everyday,Itriedmybesttopleasethemandtoadjustmyselftomynewroleaswife,daughter,sisterandaunt.IfIhadbeenmoreoutgoing,thingswouldhavebeenbetter.ButIwashopelesslyshy!NomatterhowhardItried,Ifoundithardtogetalongwiththewholefamily.Whentheywerelaughingandgossipingaboutoldfriends,allIcoulddowassitthereuncomfortablywithapolitesmileonmyface.Itriedtoincludemyselfintheirconversations,butIgotworriedandnervousaboutwhatIsaid.Iwassomiserable.Ihopedforsomehelpandsupport.TheonlypersonIcouldturntowasmyhusband.Buthewassodistantandusuallycamehomeverylate.Onenight,afteranotherlong,painfulwaitingperiod,hefinallyshowedup.Iaskedwhyhewascominghomesolate,butheonlyansweredimpatientlythatheneededsometimetorelax.Frustratedbybeingrejected,Iblurtedout:HImadeabigmistakeinmarryingyou!'*Therewasanawkward,painfulsilence."Asyouwish,”hefinallysaid,stormingoutofthebedroom.Mywholeworldseemedtohavebeenshattered,anddisconnectedbythosesimplewords.Icouldn*tbelievewewerestillonourhoneymoon.AngrytearspouredoutofmyeyesandIrushedbacktomyparents'place.MymotheraskedwhatwaswrongandIcriedandtoldherthewholestory.Tomysurprise,shesaid:nYounglady,thistimeyouwenttoofar.',"Whydidyousaythat?"Ireplied,"1didnothingwrong!**nReally?"shesaid,*'Thetruthisthemanyouchosetomarryhaschanged,andashiswifeyoudidn'tevenknowthereason.',"HowcouldIknow?"Iasked,defendingmyself,HHedidn*teventalktome.*'"Perhapsyou'vegivenhimtoomuchpressure,Mshepressedon,^Marriageisnotlikeafairytale.Sometimesyouhavetogiveinalittleandcopewithhisneeds.Don'tjustthinkaboutyourselfallthetime.*'Irealizedthattherewassometruthinmymother'swords.Inthosedays,Ihadfocusedalotonmyownproblems.PerhapsIhadoverlookedsomethingimportant.ThenIheardmymothergooninhergentle,firmvoice:MNeversayyouwanttobreakupunlessyoureallymeanit,becauseithurts.*'ThatnightIreturnedhomeandhadaheart-to-hearttalkwithmyhusband.Ifinallydugoutthetruth.Myhusband'scareerwasonedge.Becauseofhispride,andalsobecausehedidn'twanttoupsetme,hechosetokeepittohimself.HYoudon'tunderstand,"hesaidembarrassed,"Tmaman,andIshouldgiveyouacomfortablelife,but...*'Ilookedatmyhusband,surprisedtofindthathishairhadgrownabitthin.Iwentuptohimandwehuggedeachother:"That'sOK,everythingwillbefine,'*Isaid.ByXieMengying,SichuanDon'tdoitoutofkindnessDearLizi,I'veledaquietlifesinceenteringuniversity.Butaweekago,IreceivedanSMSfromagirlwhoexpressedherloveformebackinhighschool.Iwasshockedtohearfromher,becausewehadn*tbeenintouchformorethanayear!Thefirsttime,IturnedherdownbecauseIwasbusypreparingforthecollegeentranceexam.Butitseemsshereallycan'tforgetmeandwantstobemygirlfriend.Idon'tknowwhattodo.WecontacteachotheralotthesedaysandImissherifIdon*thearfromher.ButI'mafraidmyfeelingsareonlyareactiontoherbehaviourtowardsme.Thethingis,Idon*tevenknowherverywell.ButIdon'twanttohurtherfeelingsagain.WhatshouldIdo?ZaneIusedtothinkthereweretwotypesofpeopleinthisworld.Thefirstwasalwaysstrugglingtomakethingshappen.Andthesecondneverhadtodoanythingbecausethingsjusthappenedtohimorher.NowIknowIwaswrong.Lifethrowsthingsatallofus.Thedifferenceisthatsomepeopletakethechanceinfrontofthem.Andothersfailtoseetheirchancebecausethey'retoobusytryingforperfection.Whichtypedoyouwanttobe,Zane?WhynotstopworryingandgivethisbraveSMSsenderachance?You'llonlyfindoutwhatyoureallyfeelifyougettoknowherandgivetherelationshiptimetogrow.Anddon'tdoitoutofpityorkindnessforher—doitforyourself,doitbecauseyouwanttogivelifeachance.LiziStopjustdoingnothingDearLizi,I'mashygirlandIdon'tknowhowtogetalongwithmyboyfriend.We'veknowneachotherforfiveyears.Inhighschool,hehelpedmewithmylessonsandcomfortedmewhenIwassad.Nowwe'reatdifferentcolleges.Duringmilitarytraining,hetoldmehelovedme,andIacceptedhislove.Butweonlymeetonceinalongwhile-mostofthetime,weonlykeepintouchbyphone.Whenwedomeet,wejusttalk.Henevertouchesme?he*snevereventakenmyhand.Idon*tknowhowtobewithhimlikeotherlovers.MaybeI'mtoointroverted.Canyouhelp?AReaderAreyoufrustratedwithyourrelationshiporfrustratedwithyourself?Beingshyisnotagoodhabit.Butit'seasytobreak.Allyouhavetodoisstopdoingnothing.Haveyoueverwonderedwhyhenevertouchesyou?Isitperhapsbecauseyounevertouchhim?Whynottryit?Trypushingyourrelationshipforwardjustthatlittletinybit.Youmaybeamazedbywhathappensnext.Youmaytriggerthe"snowballeffect*'.Yousee,doll,beinginvolvedwithapersonisjustthesameasbeinginvolvedinlife.Ifyoudon*tgive,youllnevergetanythingback.LiziWho,beingloved,ispoor?〜OscarWildeNothingcanmaintainlovelongerthanamutualunderstanding.〜Richard(Areader)Youcanchoosethepersonwhomyoulove,butyoucannotchoosethepersonwholovesyou.〜139xxxx5285NoneedforyoutogiveupDearLizi,Pmafreshman.IwasinfectedwithHepatitisBwhenIwasjusttwoyearsold.Ihaveagirlfriendandwehaveagoodrelationship.ButIdon*tthinkI'lleverbeabletogetridofthisvirus,despitetheeffortsofmedicalscience.Shesaysit'sOK,butbeforeshewasvaccinatedayearago,Icouldn'tevenkissher.Ireallyloveherandwanttodoeverythingforher,butwhenitcomestomyillness,Ioftenfeelfrustratedandhopeless.Woulditbewisetogiveupmyloveandbesingleforever?ZorroWell,Zorro,lookslikeyou'veovercomeatleasttwobigproblems.First,you'veacceptedyourstatusasaHepBcarrier.Andsecond,you*vefoundsomeonewhodoesn'tcareaboutyourdiseaseandonlycaresaboutyou.Wow!You'redoingsowell,whydoyoustillfeelhopeless?You'llprobablycarrythevirusyourwholelife.Butthatdoesn'tmeanyoushouldgiveup.You'regoingtohavetobecarefulaboutyourhealth,butifyourgirlfriendhasalreadybeenvaccinated,sheshouldbeprettysafe.Don*ttakemywordforitthough.TakeyourgirlwithyoutoaHepBexpertsoyoucanbothlearnmoreaboutthefacts.Thengetonwithyourlifelikeanormalperson.LiziStopcontrollingthingsDearLizi,I'masophomore.ImadefriendswithahighschoolstudentovertheInternetlastyear.Hewasdepressedbyhisstudiesthen.SoI'vebeenwritingtohim,encouraginghim,andhe'smadebigprogress.HelltakethecollegeentranceexamthisJune.Butnowhesayshe*sdecidedtoapplyformycollegebecauseofme.HeissostubbornthatIhaven'tbeenabletopersuadehimtogiveupthisidea.Mycollegeisn'tagoodchoiceandIdon'twanthimtoregrethisdecisionlateron.WhatshouldIdototalkhimoutofit?AliceOhdear,nottheInternetagain!AllInternetrelationshipsaredreams.Withoutrealcontact,youhavenocontrol,andtheguyontheothersideofthecomputerisfreetodreamupwhateverfeelingsheneeds.Anditsoundslikehe'sveryneedy.Needypeoplearedangerous.Ifyoudon'twanttobeused,you'dbetterkeepyouremotionaldistance.Isuggestyoustopcontactinghimsooften.He*ssurroundedbyhisownlife.Ifyoustopremindinghimofyourpresence,thoughtsofyouandwhateveryoumeantohimwilldimveryquickly.Butperhapsyouneedhisneediness.Perhapshelpinghimhasmadeyoufeelneeded.That'sanicefeeling,isn*tit?But,basicallyitisselfishandcontrolling.Youknowwhathereallyneeds,sogiveittohim,bylettinghimgo.LiziDividedloveEditor'snote:OurUKcorrespondenthassentusthisstoryofaninterracialloveaffair,basedonhisexclusiveinterview.STEVEmetGillianwhentheywerebothinhighschool.Itwasthefirstproperrelationshipforbothofthem.Peopleneverexpectedittolast.Itwasjustahighschoolromanceafterall.Buttheirrelationshiplastedthroughuniversity.Bythetimetheywereintheirmid-20s,GillianwasmakingitcleartoStevethatshewantedtogetmarriedandstartafamily.Oneday,heinvitedhertogoforadriveinthecountryside.Whentheyreachedthecoast,theygotoutandwentforawalkalongthebeach.Themoodwasset,thetimewasright.Stevereachedintohisjacketpocketandpulledoutaring:"Willyoumarryme?"Gillian'seyeslitupandshethrewherarmsaroundhimandcriedout“yes”！Everythingwassetforafairytalefutureandtheydidlivehappilyeverafter.Endofstory.Well,notquite.Therewasonebigproblem:StevewasChineseandGillianwasaWesterner.AlthoughStevegrewupintheUK,hisparents—likesomanyotherChineseparents—expectedhimtomarryaniceChinesegirl.Hismumhadbeenunhappywiththisrelationshipwithagweilou(Cantoneseforforeigner)fromthestart.ThefirsttimeStevetoldhismumhewasdatingaScottishgirlatschool,sherefusedtotalktohimforaweek.Steveworriedthatthewomanhelovedandthewomanwhohadbroughthimupcouldnotgeton.But,allhewantedtodowastomarryhischildhoodsweetheartinabigceremony.Tohim,therewasnopointindoinganythingelse?shewastheonlygirlhewantedtobewith.Butthatonlyservedtomakemattersworse.Steve'sparentswantedatraditionalChineseweddingwithabanquetinaChineserestaurant.Gillian'sfamilywanteditinherchurch.Intheend,followingtheWesterntraditionofthebride'sparentspayingforthewedding,Steve'sparentsdidnotreallyhaveasayinanything.TheweddingwasheldinGillian*schurchandmostofSteve'sfamilyandfriendsdidnotattend.Stevedideverythinghecouldofcourse,tosmooththingsbetweenhisparentsandhisnewwife.Hespenteverymealtimehecould,trainingGilliantousechopsticksandtocookChinesefood.HetaughtherafewwordsofCantoneseinthehopeofmakinghisparentshappy.SteveandGillianhavebeenmarriedformorethanthreeyearsnow.Andnothinghaschanged.Everytimehisparentscometovisit,theystilldon*tlikehismarriagetoa"foreigner”.Stevewondersifhisparentswilleveracceptandlovehiswife.Theysayloveconquersall.But,SteveandGillianandmanyotherinterracialcouplesintheUKarestillwaitingforlovetobringdowntheculturalbarrier.ByAaronPanHappiestdaysITwasarainydayandhelentmehisumbrellaafterschool.Afterthat,Icouldnotstopthinkingofhim.Hewashandsomeandfashionable.Wewereinthesameclassandsometimessatnexttoeachother.ItookeverychanceIcouldgettotalkwithhim,buthewasnotatalkativepersonatall.Oneday,Igothisphonenumber.Irememberclearly,itwasthedaybeforeNationalDay,2003andIborrowedhiscellphonetosendatextmessagetomysister.ThatwashowIgotit.Thenextday,Isenthimamessage.Hedidn'tseemtoknowitwasme.Wantingtomakethingsmoreinteresting,ItoldhimIwasmysister.Thatdidinfactbecomeinteresting.Overthenextfewdays,itseemedthathelikedtalkingwithher.Westartedsendingmessagestoeachother,talkingabouteverything.Italkedaboutmyself.Thoseweresomeofthehappiestdaysofmylife,eventhoughwejusttalkedbySMS.Then,oneday,Ithoughtitwastimetotellhimthetruth,thatitwasnotmysisterandthatIwasinlovewithhim.Tomysurprise,hewasnotsurprisedatall!Hetoldmethathehadalreadythoughtofthatafewdaysbefore.Iaskedhimifhelovedme,andwaitedanxiouslyforananswer.“Goodgirl!Iloveyou.'*WhenIheardthesewords,IwassoexcitedIwantedtohughimatonce.But,IwasinanothercityforNationalDayholiday.Thatseven-dayholidaywassolong.Itwasveryhardformetowaittilltheend.Hetoldmethathehadarrangedeverythingforme.AllIcoulddowaswaitforthemomentwhenhewouldbeatthestationtomeetme.Thetwo-hourtripbytrainseemedliketwoyears.Butfinally,Isawhimcomingtomewiththesweetestsmile.Thenwespentahappynightwitheachotherandhisclosefriends.Weenjoyedanicedinner,thensangsongsanddrankbeerinaKTVroom.Iwasthehappiestgirlintheworldlisteningtohimsinglovesongsforme.But,overthenextfewdays,everythingchanged.Therewasnosmileonhisface,andhedidn*ttalktomemuch.Therewerenomorecallsandnomoretextmessages.And,Ifoundhisformergirlfriend'spictureinhiswallet!Iaskedhimwhy,buthejusttoldmenottotouchhiswallet.Icriedandfinallycalledhimoutforawalkonenight.Hetoldmehewasnottherightpersonforme,andthatthetwoofuswouldneverhaveanyfuturetogether.Ifellfromthetopoftheworldtothebottom.Ihadn'ttheleastideaofwhathadreallyhappened.Almosttwoyearshavepassed,butIcan*tgethimoutofmyheart.WestillkeepintouchwitheachotherbutIknowfromthelookinhiseyesthatI'mjustaformerclassmate.Ihavethoughtaboutaskinghimtocomebacktome,butI'mafraidofbeinghurtagain.EverytimeImisshim,Ijusttalktohiminmyheart:"Iloveyou,butthathasnothingtodowithyou.',Takeheradvice:forgetherDearLizi,"Breakup*'.Itwasmygirlfriend'sideaandithappenedamonthago.Noearlywarning,noreason-shejustwantedit.ButIdon'tunderstand:Wewerehappy.Afterthebreak-up,wecontactedeachothereveryday,andshesaidshestillmissedme.ButIdon'tknowwhatthatmeans.Nowshe'ssentmeamessage:"forgetmeandlookforanothergirlfriend”.Thesewordsmademeveryangry,andHvedecidednottocontactherforalongtime.WhatdoyouthinkIshoulddo?ChangGongThereisn'tmuchyoucando,Gong.Apartfromtakeheradviceandforgether.Otherwisethingsmightstartgettingrathermessy,andwhoneedsthat?Ifshedecidedtoleaveyou,theremusthavebeensomethingwrongwiththerelationship.Right?Shewasdecisiveenoughtomakethebreak-butnowsheisn'tbraveenoughtosticktoit.Shesaysshemissesyou,butit'snottherealyoushemisses,it'sonlyherideaofyou.You*relettingherconfusionbecomeanoosearoundyourneck.Thatwillonlybringyoulongingandbitterness.Ifyouwanttoexplorethesepains,thenkeeppursuingher.Butintheend,you*regoingtohavetoleavesuchpainsbehindandacceptyourfateingenerousfashion.Thenyou'llbeabletoletgoofthebrokentiesthatbindyouandfallheadfirstintoyourfreedom.LiziLoveisaflowerseedthatwemustwatereverydaysoitwillblossomintothemostbeautifulflower.〜ByLiXia(areader)Eachofusisanangelwithjustonewing.Weembraceeachothertobecomecompleteandflyuphigh.〜ByVitamin(areaderShestolemyheartITwasTuesdaynightandwehadastudysessioninthegymnasiumasusual.Itwasrainingheavilyoutsideafterthemeeting.FortunatelyIhadanumbrellawithme.SoIofferedtogowithEyretoherworkplace.Wewerebothsoakedthroughafterarriving.Itwasamessinheroffice.Therewereplentyoftasksthatneededtobedoneandthecomputerwasoutoforder.Butasluckwouldhaveit,IhadmyMP3playerwithme.Sowelistenedtomusicinsteadandturnedtoitforcomfort.Icouldseeshewasnothappythatnight.Welistenedtothesong"Whowouldyoumisswhenyouarelonely'*.Allofasudden,sheputherheadonmyshoulder.Atthatmomentmyheartbegantobeatquickly.Icomfortedherandtoldhertofinishtheworktomorrow.Whilespeakingtoher,Icouldnothelpholdingherhand.Foramomentwestaredintoeachotherseyes.Howromantic!Itwaslikealovestoryinafilm.Ikissedher.Shefeltalittleembarrassedinthebeginningbutdidnotrefuse.Thenwekissedeachother.Itwasmyfirstkiss,andIfeltthemostwonderfulthinginmylife.However,thehappinesswasveryshort.Thenextday,IfeltveryexcitedthewholemorningwhenIthoughtofwhathappenedthepreviousnight.Inordertobeanicemanandtosurpriseher,Iboughtsomeorangesthatsheliked.IphonedherwhenIarrivedoutsideherdorm.Amomentlater,shecamedownlookingverysad.Thefirstwordsshecameoutwithwere:"I'msorry*'.Thensheexplainedthatshealreadyhadaboyfriend.Shewasoutofcontrolthatnightbecauseofsadnessandonlywantedsomecomfortfromafriend.Ineveraskedherwhethershehadaboyfriendornot,soshedidn*tmentionitthen.Shedidn'twantmyoranges.Shewantedmetoforgetwhathadhappenedthatnightandsaidweshouldjustbegoodfriends.Iwasfightingtokeepmytearsback.MyheartbecamecoldandInoddedwithoutsayingasinglewordthenturnedandleft.Icouldnotcontrolmyselfanymoreandcriedthebitteresttearsinmylifewhenshewasoutofsight.Thatnightwithouthavingdinner,Ilayonmybedlisteningtomusicwithdarknessaroundme.IwishedI'dneverbeenborn.IwishedI'dnevercometothiscollegeandmether.Icouldn'tforgetherbecauseIlovedhersodeeply.ButIhadtoforgetherbecauseIdidn*twanttodestroyherhappiness.IfeltasifIwasdying.Nowtwomonthshavepassed.Ikeepdreamingabouthereverynight.EachnightwhenIgotobed,IfeellikesendingamessagetoherbutIdon'thavethecourage.WhatIwishnowisthattimewillwashawaythememory.Idon'texpectshewilllovemeorcometomeoneday,Ionlywanttoforgetmystrongfeelingsforher,littlebylittle,daybyday.Butstill,itseemsthatthereisnothingthatcanmakemehappyandactiveagain.ShenotonlytookmyfirstkissawaybutalsomyheartIfyoudon'twantto,thendon,tdoitDearLizi,I'masophomore.Afewdaysago,myclassmateLilycametomeforsomeadvice.Ididn'tknowwhattosay,soI'mwritingtoyou.Lilyhasbeenwithherboyfriendfortwoyears,andsheloveshimverymuch.Butnowherboyfriendwantstohavesexwithher.Lilyhasrefused.Butshedoesn'tknowwhattodo.She'sstillavirginandnotyetreadyforsex.Butshethinksthatifshekeepsonrefusingherboyfriend,itmighthurttheirrelationship.Anyadvice?KarenIfshedoesn*twanttodoit,sheshouldn*tdoit.Sure,sexisniceanditbringsyouclosertoyourpartner,butit*sjustsex!Ifyou'reayoungsterjuststartingoutonyoursexualjourney,thereareafewthingsyoushouldknowtokeepyououtoftrouble(forexample,useacondomandbesureyoutrustyourpartner).Beyondthat,it*salluptoyou.Noonebutyoudecides.Modernsociety(andfilm)hascompletelychangedthissimpleactofbeingclose.It'smadeitintosomethingreallydramatic.Can'twebemoresensibleaboutit?IfLily'snotready,it'snobigdeal.Herboyfriendshouldbeabletoacceptthis.Meanwhile,theyshouldalsoseriouslyconsidersuchthingsastraditionalmoralvaluesandiftheyarereadytotaketheresponsibility.LiziForgetaboutit,andit'snotthatevilDearLizi,IlikeagirlcalledKilthverymuch.She'smybestfriendandwerespecteachotheralot.SometimesImasturbate.Ithinkmasturbatingisnormal.ButoncewhileIwasmasturbating,IstartedthinkingofKilth.Ievenimaginedhavingsexwithher.Howterrible!Sincethen,wheneverIseeKilth,IgetreallynervousandfeellikeI'vedonesomethingvery,veryeviltoher.HowcanIgetridofthisstrangefeeling?Wheredoesthisfeelingcomefrom?Pleasehelp!MikeLeeIdon'tgetit.Don*tallboysthinkabouthavingsexwhilethey*reflyingtheirlittleairplanes?Isn'tthatwhatyou'resupposedtodo?Sowhyareyousoupset,Mikeyboy?AndwhydoyouthinkhavingsexwithKilth,oreventhinkingaboutit,isevil?There*snothingevilaboutit—sexisnormal,justlikemasturbation.WhatIthinkyouhavetodoisworkoutyourfeelingsforKilth.She'syourbestfriend.Doyouwantmorefromher?Ifyoudo,you'regoingtohavetostarttalkingtoheraboutlove.Butifyouwanttokeepherasafriend,youmighthavetogetyourselfapropergirlfriend.Whenyou*vedonethat,youshouldn'tneedtocrashyouryoghurttrucksomuchanymore!Loveiscomposedofasinglesoulinhabitingtwobodies.〜137xxxx7554Lovecanbesaidwithoutspeaking;lovecanbeheardwithoutlistening.〜WendyG(Areader)Loveisabalmywindthatsoothespainandanxietyinthetempestsoflife.一ZhangJie(Areader)ItconquersgreatdistancesShenZhihua,ofNanjingUniversityofTechnology,willgotoAustraliaforfurtherstudyinJuly.HisgirlfriendwillstayinNanjing.Shenthinksoverseasstudywon'tharmtheirloveatall.I'llmissthenightsattheNanjingEnglishcornerwhereImettheprettygirl.ItwasMarchandthemoonwasout.Therewasasweetsmellintheair.Mybookandpencilswerelyingontheground,neglected,asItalkedwiththegirlattentively.Ifellinlovewithheratfirstsight.HernamewasMiaoQiandherimagewasburnedintomymemoryassoonaswebegantotalk.DuringthetwohoursatEnglishcorner,MiaoQiandIchattedaboutstudies,exams,andthefuture.Thosetwohourschangedmylifeforever.ThenlovecameonlyfourmothsbeforemydepartureforMelbourneUniversity.IneverimaginedIwouldmeetthegirlofmydreamsthatnightinthatplace.Wegrewclosertoeachotherinthefollowingmonthsafterthatfirstmeeting.EverydayIsentmessagestoher.Ialsocalledhertohearhersweetvoice.SheenjoyedtheattentionthatIgaveher.HerbrighteyessparkledasIcalledher,eventhoughshewasalittlebitshyandwasreserved.BothofuslikeclimbingandeverySundaymorning,ZijinMountainwasourdestination.Weenjoyedthefreshairandthequietofthewoods.Attheendofastonepath,weclearlyknewthattherewaslove.Handsinhand,andeyesgazinglonginglyateachother,Ifeltmyhoneysay"Iloveyou"eventhoughshedidn,treallysayanythingatthatmoment.Caneyesspeak?Canheartsappreciate?Absolutely!Icouldfeellovewithmyheart.Nextmonth,onJuly14,I'llleaveforMelbourneUniversityinAustralia.Tilbethereoneyear.ButIknowthisisthestart,nottheend,ofourlove.ThatnightattheEnglishcornerandthewoodsonZijinMountainwillbeinmymindforever.Thoughtherewillbeagreatdistancebetweenus,westillunderstandandsupporteachotherbecauseweloveeachotherdeeply.Itisalovethatcanconquerdistance.Wegrewwiththelove,andwelearnedtotakecareofeachotherandtakeresponsibility.Now,thatlovewillteachusthathappinessneedspatienceandwaiting.It'safeelingthatwilllastforeverGaoLinghuiisnowapostgraduateatOceanUniversityofChina.Differentchoicescausedherandherlovetosaygoodbye.Themessagejumpedontomymobilescreen,saying:Hlwishyouahappyday."Ismiledandsentmybestwishesbacktohim.Themessagetookmebacktowhenwewerestillatcollege.Imethimbychanceduringmyfirstyearatcollege.Afterthatfirstmeeting,weoftenmet.Hewashandsome,humorousandconsiderateandgraduallyenteredmylife.Ayearlater,hisdepartmentmovedtoanothercampus.Hevisitedmeonweekendsandeachtimewehadagoodtimetogether.SolittletimeWekeptintouchandgrewclose.Occasionallywetalkedaboutthefutureandrealizedwewouldentertherealworldsoon.ThenIwasacceptedforpostgraduatestudiesatanotheruniversityandhefoundagoodjobinhishometown.IknewwewouldhavetogoourseparatewaysinJune2003.Timeseemedsolimitedandwecherisheditallthemore.Atthebeginningofthelastsemester,hesuggestedanoutingtogether.Then,suddenly,SARShit.Wewereisolatedandhadnochancetogoonourouting,oreventomeet.Theplanfortheoutingwouldhavetoremainadreamforever.Whilewewerequarantined,hephonedmeeveryday.Itwasgreateachtime,pickingupthereceiverandhearinghiskindvoice.Thecallswentonformorethantwomonthsuntilwegraduated.Thennewscamethatthegraduationceremonywouldbeheldonhiscampus.Ican'tdescribemyfeelingswhenIsawhimthatday.Itseemedlikeadream,butitreallywastrue.Thetimewassoshortaftertheceremony.Wejustusedthechancetohaveapicturetakentogether-theonlyonewe'dbeenabletotakesincemeeting.BeforeIleft,wepromisedtokeepincontactandwetoldeachotherthat,whateverdifficultycameourway,wewouldneverletgoofourfriendship.It*snowbeenalmosttwoyearsandwe'reindifferentcitiesbutstillkeepintouch.Althoughmyspecialfeelingsforhimhavebeengiventoanotherboy,Ican'tdenythattheytrulyexistedonce.AndIknowthatoncetherewasaboywhocaredformeandhelpedme.Hesharedmyhappinessandsorrows.Hetreatedmedifferentlyfromothers.ItcanmakeyourheartsmileMaFeifeisaidgoodbyetoherboyfriendaftergraduationbutgottogetherwithhimlater.They'renowinZhejiang,happilytogetheragain.WemeteachotheratZhengzhouUniversityin2001.HewasashyboybutheexpressedhisfeelingstomebravelyonAugust17,afterhehadwatchedmeforhalfayear.Atthattime,Ihadayearuntilgraduationandhewasinhissecondyear.Becauseofhissunny,honestsmile,Ididn'timmediatelysayno.Thefollowingdays,weweretogetheralmostalldaylong,studying,eating,playingorjustwanderingthroughlife.HetriedtofindanyexcusetobewithmeandIalsodidn*tbothertoseethroughhisfunny,simple,naiveschemes.Severalweekslater,Iacceptedarosefromhim.Wehadayeartogetherwithoutanyproblems.Then,Igraduatedin2002andfoundajobinthesamecity.Howluckywewerethatmyworkunitwasjusta10-minutewalkfromtheuniversity.Wecontinuedwithourhap