A letter to Kudo Shinichi.doc

The Light with Your Namefor the birthday ofShinichiFour years ago, I noticed you, Shinichi Kudo, who I love so much for the first time, and moved me so deeply that changed all my life since then.I cant figure out how much you have influenced me during the fleeting four years. But I remembered what I had done for you the first time was giving up computer games, which surprised my parents very much. They have adopted lots of measurestrying to make me forget so many interesting games but they failed eventually.However, I did it for you, for I saw your meaningful and hard-earned dailylife, Then, for you, I studied Japanese though I can only learn it from comics.For you, I started to know how valuable the life is. For you, I learned to loveone with my heart. You showed me beautiful love, friendship, family, etc. Itsyou who build my world outlook and values. Its you who taught me to be happyevery day, to be optimistic about all the setbacks in life. And you taught meto care about everyone around me and cherish every single day. Im not afraidof difficulties any longer. No matter how difficult it is, just go aheadtowards the justice you believe in. Thats what you told me, and encourages me all the time.I dont know how you can face all the strange things came to you suddenly. You are an outstanding senior student who is regarded as “the Savoir of Japanese Police”. You are one of the most famous junior detectives in Japan. You have a nice GF around you every day. All you life was so easy but colorful, so challenging bur peaceful. However, you were poisoned by Gin and Vodka, who belonged to Black Organization which is so strong that almost covering the entire world. So much danger ran into your life that day. Just one day, you grew up rapidly and fight against Black Organization without any fear. You began to protect every person around you and regard it as your responsibility. You cherished all the things, since you know theyre all not easy to obtain, but easy to go away.“Dont escape,Haibara. Dont escape your destiny. ”You said so to Ai, and act it by yourself indeed. You never be afraid of dangers around you but face it straight every time. I love your eyes best, Shinichi, which always shinning bright of belief. “The truth is always only one!” You never give up the justice in your mind, even if when the criminal is the one you admire most. “Stop it, Ray! Even if you are facing a bitter aspect of life, drugs and murders are foul without any excuse,deserve a red card for a loser.” Ray Cadis, who is your favorite football player that as important as Holmes in your heart. But you deserve a red card to him, by yourself. “Hes my idol, but just for that, I have to rescue him from the abyss of crime. However, hes still the hero on the play ground.” As you said, you are not the god but a normal person, you also have your emotion, but it is cant be the reason of forgiving the murder no matter how important he is for you.“I dont know why people kill others, but it neednt reason to save ones life.” You regarded life more than important than everything else. So you bend your best to rescue others, even it will put your life near the death, even he is a criminal. “If a detective put the criminal into hopeless situation, there will be nothingdifferent between them.” Everyone is so essential in your world.“I love you, more than anyone else on the earth.” With gentle smile on your face, you expressed your heart ultimately. Ran Mori, a girl who you have loved for more than ten years. But she didnt treat it seriously because youre Conan now, not Shinichi Kudo. How much you love her, but you even cannot make her know your mind.Ran is really very strong as well, and waits for you all the time. Lonely and sad although she is sometimes, she always hides her sorrow but smiles to everyone else, just like you.However, on 14th February, Ran cried, without noticing you were right behind the sofa, beside her. “The furthest distance in the world, is not between life and death, but when I stand in front of you, yet you dont know that I love you.” I saw pain,sorrow. Sadness from your blue eyes, which made me almost cry. “Shinichi nison said,he must come back, even will die. So, please wait him, please.” You swearedfirmly, like sunshine, lighting up every corner in her heart. “Ill be here,since he said, Wait for me, Ran. Ill wait him, until he comes back.” Herwords made you happy but painful, nevertheless. “I dont want to see her tears,even if she forgets me one day.” Reflected light of the glasses hided your eyesand feelings, but couldnt hide your desolateness.But, its you who is the most painful one, Shinichi, its you. You cannot even say a word to relieve Ran when she is crying for you, but just by her side, and protect her all the time, in silence. No one can relieve you, no one. But still, you care her more and more. You love her, deeper and deeper.How heavy the responsibilities on your back, but you take them alone even you almost cannot afford. You never give up and bear all the stress on your own no matter what happened, without a word, without tears. Shinichi, how I want to give you a shoulder, but I cant, and you wont want. You used to expressing your optimism and happy face to others, but hiding your sorrow, loneliness and tiredness, without sharing with anyone, since you are not willing to put anyone in danger as you are. You said, “Dont worry, Ill protect you.” To Ran, to Ai, to junior detectives.But, who protect you? Regardless of yourself, you always care about everyone.Please, Shinichi, please give me, and all people w